Flexibility

I used to be a lot more flexible. I'm not talking joints and physical positions and twisting and turning my body; I mean change-of-plans flexible. It used to be that if I woke up with one set of plans for the day but something happened and a whole new set of plans presented itself, whether voluntarily or by circumstance, it didn't throw me - I just went with it. But not so much lately, and I don't like it. One of the reasons I work at home is so that I CAN be flexible. If I need to schedule an appointment for the me or the kids during normal work hours, I can do that and make up my time later in the afternoon or evening and not take formal time off. If I have a repair person coming over, I can still be productive work-wise while waiting for them to get here. If I have to leave in the middle of the afternoon to go renew the license tags for my car before they expire because I've put it off for the last 30 days instead of getting it done and over with, I can. Things like that. But lately I've really noticed myself becoming resentful of interruptions to my day and my plans. Nonimportant interruptions. Like DS asking if we can have something different for dinner instead of what I have planned. Like DD making plans with a friend for a school project without clearing times with me first. Nothing that is going to matter in the overall scheme of things even a few days from now. I'm not sure what the underlying problem is, whether I feel a lack of consideration from other people (not just my kids) or whether the urgency I feel to get work accomplished when it's available during this slow period is becoming too overwhelming or I feel a lack of control in my life or if I'm just getting old and set in my ways. All I know is I don't like how I've become. In just a few short years, my children will be off to college, and I will have all the time in the world for my plans without interruption. Until then, I need to change, start saying "yes" more often and work through the meaningless anxiety and resentment that has no place in a life with twin teens.